Spring/Late Winter Break review

Its finally Spring  Break! I can’t believe its already past mid point of my last semester here at HCC. I hated the fact that my break never coincides with other schools’ breaks, but at least I get to have a week off. So thankful!

It also took me a while to finally blog again. Needless to say, many many things happened since the last time I blogged. Surely enough, though, in retrospect, I really grew a lot from those events. God really really does “make things work together for our good” Romans 8:28 

So here are few things that I got out of, just for the sake of reviewing.

(1) I realized that I mess up a lot.  Ranging from things like failing to do homework assignments to making relationships with other people difficult, I realize that I I fell/fall short in so many occasions and in different ways.

But the amazing thing is that I’m still koved and accepted by my community, and that’s just simply awesome. I’m not dwelling on my mistakes but simply just awed by the love in this community. And just imagine how much more our Dad in heaven loves us! Cray

(2) I’m going to miss HCC. I’m currently in the process of transferring. I applied to instate /close proximity schools (College Park, UMBC, Johns Hopkins, Georgetown) because I realized that for the time being, I’m called to remain near home and continue to serve the church and my family. I know that He will lead me and take me to the school that He already planned out. Such exciting times!

(3) I’ve been playing drums literally every week. It’s definitely taking a toll on me; it sometimes got to the point where I just wanted to pay a professional drummer to fill in for me. But He’s been renewing my heart and passion to worship Him weekly, to worship in any way I can; if that’s what it takes for me to keep on worshipping, then why not right?

These are just a few things thats been on my mind past couple weeks. Regardless of things, God has been consistently revealing His goodness in VERY TANGIBLE ways, I can’t help but simply thank Him for His love and blessings.

I KNOW that He’s been also very faithful to you, in terms of us feeling His love and mercy daily. Isn’t He Great?

Too much for words

wow, I have not been on this site/blogged in a long time. There were so many things that happened in the past however many months I haven’t blogged, but this remains: life is good, and God is awesome.

Just a few things to write down..

(1) I am now of age. Its crazy how old I feel now these days, especially when I hear my friends introduce themselves as 21 year olds. Quick example; when we had the new teachers come up during Youth large group and introduce themselves, and Noah goes “I’m 21 years old, i’m in college..” I was like, ‘are you kidding me. Why does that sound so old’

(2) I’m incredibly blessed with the people around me. Sometimes people take their friends, community, or family for granted, but I’m super blessed. Some of my dear nunas took me out for much-delayed birthday dinner just this past weekend. As I was sitting (on my toilet), and getting ready to poop, I realized that the community I have here is just purely awesome; something that I will not trade with anything.

(3) TIMOTHY. These kids are like crack. “love crack”, for that matter. The more time I spend with these people, the more I fall in love with them, and the more I want to be there for them. And its absolutely humbling because my love for these kids do not come anywhere near how much God loves them. and How much God desires to spend time with them. It just floors me; and the fact that He wants to spend time with me just as much as He wants to spend time with them, its just crazy. stop it man

(4) I hate small talks. Granted its the only way I can talk to people I just met, but with the lovely family around me, small talks don’t get you anywhere. Especially when you’re being intentional with building relationships with other people, small talks are almost border-line rude, because it just doesn’t take you anywhere. When there is honesty, love, challenge, and encouragement, relationships will get stronger and deeper. Thank you God

I will regret re-blogging. Too much to write, little do I know how to word them. FOB

2012 – (yes i’m 12 days late, i know)

2012! Time is going by faster than ever! Perhaps too fast. 2011 went by way too quick, and so many things happened in 2011, I’m not sure if I’ll have enough time to sit down and recollect 2011, before 2013 comes around! Dear time, slow your roll! But one thing is for sure though. This Winter Break is going by nice and slow (or mediocre speed/fast), definitely one of many things I’m thankful for in this early 2012 season!

I love Winter Breaks. Especially when I get to spend the time with my dear friends. (Went biking in DC the other day, t’was beautiful!) I just hope that for the remainder of the break, I will be able to spend more quality time with them, before school hits us. I just wish these 2-a-days would chilLAX a bit (see what I did there?). 2-a-days are breaking me down, physically and mentally. I feel worse than I ever did during finals, I feel like I need to start drinking these babies again (see picture)

I wish I had the gift of being able to sleep wherever, whenever. Those of you with that ability, I envy you.

As the New Year gets rolling, one of my resolutions is to be a true G, more than ever before:

more Gentle

more Genuine

more Godly.

(don’t laugh. i thought it was clever. h8rs gonn h8)

But whatever I strive to do or become, I know that God loves me and is proud of me for who I am. Through Jesus, that never-ending love will continue to surround me, and His truly amazing grace  never runs dry, and is new everyday. Staying in the love of Christ today, tomorrow, and forever, until I die. <– THAT is my resolution.

Time to go lax, with jesus juice filled all the way to the top and over flowing, like a BOUSS.

Jesus loves lacrosse. In fact, He is the first lax brah in the history of lacrosse. He’s got that CRUCIAL flow!

2011 Review / 2012 Preview

I’ve been sitting in the library for the past 2-3 hours, mindlessly surfing the Internet. I don’t know if it’s the sudden lack of sleep I got today, or not having any work to do; just enjoying the time here, listening to Hillsong United, I guess. (Song of the day) Yes, it is just wasting time, but there’s peace in that. And peace sounds really good right now…… not a good excuse for bumming in the library, I know.

As I was surfing the web, and going through some of my “see friendships” on fb, I realized a few things.

1. I miss a lot of people
2. I haven’t seen many of those people in a long time. I want to see them
3. I grew.

I grew. I grew a lot, actually. Not just speaking in terms of physicality (I grew another inch and a half, went from 6’1.5 to 6’3) :D, but Spiritually as well. Were there many ups and downs in my walk this year? Absolutely. In fact, way too many. But through out those times, God still held me in His hands. There were many times where I wanted to drift away, and on some incidences, I actually did.

But the Man Upstairs didn’t leave me alone; As I was wondering in the slums, He brought me back on track through many people. The word Thankful doesn’t do justice, in showing my love and gratitude towards the people that love me, whom God the Pops placed in my life. *Can’t ask for better group of family.

As December is approaching rather quickly (only a few more days), the End of the Year is creeping right around the corner. Time flew by! Such a popular phrase, but it’s very true. Time goes by quick without you noticing it. I wish I had the power of stopping time, but “Time waits for no man”………. does it wait for women?

Before I know it, January is going to be here, which means I’m going to be pummeled by 2 things:

• Lacrosse
• honors program/school stuff.

School, let alone, will take a lot of time away from me, which will make serving in the church a bit more difficult than summer/winter times. But lacrosse will definitely hit it out the park; However, knowing that I won’t be able to serve as much, or even be at church as often, I still decided to pick up the stick again, perhaps for the last time.

Saying that playing lacrosse won’t affect my spiritual life is a total lie. Doesn’t mean I’m just going to let myself drift away again. I have my brothers and sisters to turn to, when in need of anything. Also, if God can use His people in any circumstance/situation/surrounding, why limit myself, in terms of how God’s going to use me? Maybe playing Lacrosse will open opportunities for me to share the Gospel to my teammates or coaches, or others. Perhaps it will open doors for me to travel to different areas, and allow me to be SALTY AND SHINY. I’m just not going to box myself in, and limit the Pops from using me in any way,shape or form!

I’m hoping praying that January 2012 will be the season of even greater growth of my spiritual life. I’m excited to see where God’s going to take me/ how He’s going to do stuff through me. If God’s got my back, all areas of my life will be is taken care of, and will continue to be taken care of by Him.

Now the question is, when am I getting a girlfriend?……. SIKE (no really.)

Go crazy, people. Go crazy

W.O.W.

those three letters basically sum up tonight’s game.
talk about an emotional roller coaster! tonight’s game made mood swings a social norm, and probably made some people cry here and there (no comment on whether i cried or not). being a st. louis native, my heart definitely took some heavy beating tonight.

i must say though, this game definitely took me back to the 2006 campaign. talk about an emotional series! with the old busch stadium being gone, cards nation definitely felt like something special was going to happen that year, and it did. world champs. perhaps they were paying homage to the history of the st. louis cardinals baseball club. 

perhaps tonight’s game was an icing on the top, another homage to the cards baseball nation, and the city of st. louis. the entire game was just crazy, especially towards the latter half of the game.

rangers go up, and the cardinals tie it. rangers go up again, and the cards tie it right back up. rangers go up, and seems to have the game in control, with just one strike away from winning it all. and then of course, cards tie it up, and we’re in for one of the most interesting baseball games of all times. perhaps one of the best games in the history of sports!

seriously though, come on man. this game cannot be simply put into words. no words can depict what just went down, in the good ol’ gateway city!

game 7? BRING IT ON. us st. louis people sure know how to turn things around in the end. clutch city!

its hammer time. go crazy

Who needs to study when you have Jesus as the Answer? Sike nah……. forreal though

I am currently sitting in my typical spot in the corner of the HCC library. This place might as well be my house, I do everything up in here: eat, sleep, QT, study, and even washed my face and brushed my teeth (in the library bathroom, of course).

I have a huge exam tomorrow in Sociology, probably one of the poorest classes I ever took in my life. I mean, I love the professor, and I like the material we study. But its just that girlfriend doesn’t know how to teach! All she does is read off power point slides. She has yet to open the textbook in class; I’m sure she looks at it at home and comes up with lesson plans, ergo the PP slides, but she just reads them off. She even puts the powerpoints up on blackboard, so skipping her class is very tempting…. but I do fear her. (She’s the one with the dragon tattoo, as mentioned in my Facebook status)

Like I mentioned above, I have an exam to study for, but I just cannot get my head around it. So I just decided to read the Word. And behold, God once again demonstrates his power; The Big Man just kind of showed up, while I was reading the word. The passage is Colossians 1:10-12, part of today’s M’Cheyne Bible Reading plan (http://hippocampusextensions.com/mcheyneplan).

This passage just touched/smacked me. As I was reading it, I began to pray it as my own prayer; replacing all the “You”s and “We”s, with “I” or “me”

This passage is AWESOME.

God I pray this in order that I may live a life worthy of the Lord and may please him in every way: bearing fruit in every good work, growing in the knowledge of God, being strengthened with all power according to his glorious might so that I may have great endurance and patience, and joyfully giving thanks to the Father, who has qualified Me to share in the inheritance of the saints in the kingdom of light.

Amen.

**Song of the day: You Are My Passion – Jesus Culture.

Dueces

-Kwak

(Almost) Mid-Semester evaluation

Its already March.

Its almost half way through the semester. Past couple weeks went by way TOO QUICK.

I’m having a blast.. maybe too much. There’s just something about attending school, that part of me just enjoys. I love going to classes, I love studying with the people from my classes. I love it.

Don’t get me wrong, I hate doing work. I hate Hate HAte HATe HATE it. But I think my work ethic is pretty good.

All my classes are amazing (2nd time boasting about my classes). All my professors are awesome. They absolutely love me… Or maybe I sucked up to them so much, they actually like me. Whatever the case may be, I get random extra points in 2 of my classes, and in the other classes, the professors enjoy talking to me / joking around with me.

OLD PEOPLE LOVE ME.

I do need someone to eat with though. Its pretty sad. I eat by myself, most of the time. Embarrassing.. Like right now, its gotten to the point where I act like I’m talking to someone over the phone, while eating by myself. And then I would proceed to the (STATE OF THE ART) library, and be a loner. But its okay, Jesus hangs out with me in the library quite often. Soon enough, though, I will have lunch buddies.

Overall, HCC is just AWESOME. God is SO GOOD for providing a place like HCC for me.

P.S.

there’s A LOT of fobs here in HCC… Like I’ve never realized there were this many fobs in HoCo.

Too School for cool

I’m currently sitting in the library, because my English professor canceled class for the 2nd time this week. What is going on? I WANT MY EDUCATION.

School is awesome. Who ever came up with the phrase, “Too cool for school” is El Loco, because they are Whacko.

All my classes are awesome, thanks be to God for great professors, and giving me the right attitude. It’s fun being able to consider myself as “a student” again. I missed doing homework, I missed staying up writing papers, I missed joking around with teachers (professors now). I just missed this environment…  But of course, I’m just saying all this now. Watch me hate school in like 3 weeks.

Most importantly though, I’m getting more fired up for God. I do my QT’s on campus, in the library, and God’s just doing wonders during those times. One time, I was doing my QT’s, and God just put extraordinary amount of joy in my heart, I just wanted to jump up and scream, in the middle of the quiet section.

God is weird. He just shows up randomly, whenever he wants. Don’t matter where you are, what you’re doing. He shows up randomly, simply because He wants to.

I like God.

Peace errbody. Have a great weekend. Spend some time with God. (tell Him I said Hi)

Here we goooo

College… T-minus 48 hours.

This is real now. Needless to say, I’m very very excited. Sure, it still is “school”, but I missed going to classes.

I’ve been thinking about those past couple months when I was away from school. Needless to say, my life changed. At first, I really didn’t like being away from school. As I have mentioned before, I felt like a failure for first several weeks. While my friends enjoyed their “freedom” at college, I was at home, still doing the same things that I had been doing before I graduated…. The same ol’ grind. But as time went by, God slowly revealed to me the whole reason behind me staying away from school … He wanted me to serve. At first, I wasn’t sure if I really wanted to serve at all. But the fact that I was put in a situation where I kept getting these opportunities to serve, my heart began to change. God humbled my heart, and is continuing to do so. Through out the past couple months, I was  able to whole-heartedly focus on serving.

I’m very happy, and thankful for what God’s been doing, and will continue to do.

I’m excited to see what God has in store for me this semester.

LEGOOOOOO

update update

wow, I’ve been MAJOR slacking with updating my blog. I always find myself feeling really busy. That’s weird, because I don’t really do much, other than working and getting PAID. boom

Looking back a few months, it’s safe to say that things have been going very well, all thanks to grace of God. Its kind of weird, because I was feeling miserable just a few months ago. I felt like a big big failure, and that nothing was going to work out the way I, or my family would like. I never thought things would actually fall in place.  I just lost most of my hope, holding onto my last string of hope. I mean, I knew in my head that God was going to show me the ways later on, but we often find ourselves struggling to put that thought into our hearts, truly dropping every single worry we have. Being out of school, feeling unproductive just flat out sucked. It only made the whole “finding my identity” thing worse.

But now I know why God put me in such situation. Throughout the break, God helped me to grow up. No, He  grew me up. He helped me to mature. He had me involved with many activities, doing many things (mostly dirty work), and spending a lot of time with Him ( I mean, I literally had nothing else to do). HE MADE ME TAKE SOME TIME OFF, SO I CAN CHILL WITH HIM. Only if I knew this when the whole thing began. mymy.

But yeah, long story short, I’m a very blessed man (or boy). I’m blessed with awesome family. I’m blessed with awesome community of Lovelylovely brothers and sisters. I’m blessed with great surroundings. I’m blessed with great opportunities. Not to mention my height. I’m tall.

Shout outs to my brahs and sis’s who are studying their guts out for the finals. I know you guys will do just great on your exams! Go destroy those exams, hurt your professors’ feelings, throw them duces up on your way out. I’ll be fist pumping for you! But most of all, thank God dearly, all day err day.

CHYEA